The Rambler
When did everything get so complacent? Or maybe the word I’m looking for is boring. If it wasn’t for Keely hosting “game night” on Saturday this really would of been another wasted weekend. What is a wasted weekend? To me it’s a waste when I have no responsibility, yet fail to do anything memorable, enjoyable or meaningful. I mean there’s only so many movies I can see. Only so many people I can ask to join me for a beer or two. Only so much I can write on my blog. Where’s the life? Where’s the energy? The economy? The cold? Folks working on the weekends? Who knows, but whatever the case may be, one thing is for certain – Torrington is no place to settle if you have no family or kids to tie you down. If the economy ever stabilizes and I learn how to save a little money, I’m out like Michael J. Fox in a game of Chenga! I put in my time here - Minus a few abbreviated departures for college and other things, I’ve basically called this place my home for 30 years. I’m scared to death that one day I’ll blink and be 60: Still watching movies at the Cinerom. Yikes. With no wife or kids, it’s nieve of me to think that my future lies in Torrington. To think I actually came close a few months back to settling into an apartment in this place. Yikes again. Nothing is scarier than routine. Nothing is more frustrating than mediocrity. As king of the Irish Goodbye, something tells me if I ever did up and leave I would simply just do it. Maybe post a blog giving everyone my new contact info in some different place. People would most likely be mad at first, but, after a few moments, I’m sure nobody would be that pissed. Everyone has got to live their life. I don’t begrudge anyone their happiness so I hope no one would do that to me. Don’t get me wrong - I’m happy. I have great friends, an okay job and a warm house. But I know in my heart I don’t want to live out the rest of my days here. I’ve always known it. Even in my happiest moments I’ve known it. I’ve been spinning my wheels for too long. I have a jeep now. It’s time to put it in 4-low and get a movin’. Get busy livin-or get busy dyin’….that’s god damn right.
January 19, 2009 at 7:44 am
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January 20, 2009 at 1:21 pm
I’ve been feeling the same way lately! I blame the winter season, I’ve become a hermit!!! During the summer months I’m always out and about looking for the next adventure or simple night out with friends. I know, like you, that this isn’t where I want to settle, but I’m terrified to leave. Of course my new little niece doesn’t help, I don’t want to miss her growing up. I like to take little steps, in ’07 I finally moved out of my town (although I hate the, so called city, I live in now) my next move will hopefully be to a new town, then a new state……Virginia or the Carolina’s perhaps, something still within driving distance of my family. So anyway now that I’ve rambled on, just wanted to let ya know your not the only one feeling the winter blues.